[ i mean, it's soju. but it's not just the drink that's making ishmael feel weird -- her drunken mind is working over time in a futile effort to be rational at a time like this as she dwells on the question wriothesley asked her a moment ago.
would she have done the same with the other guys? obviously the first one to come to mind is toji. he was the other person she'd kissed with tongue before so she figured it'd be the same... but it's not. she can't see herself doing that to him in semi-public, out of sheer worry and impulsivity. what they have is different; it was purely physical, nothing more.
but now this leaves her with only one conclusion. why she'd rather do it with wriothesley, and why she wouldn't hesitate to do it again in better, less harrowing circumstances. ]
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would she have done the same with the other guys? obviously the first one to come to mind is toji. he was the other person she'd kissed with tongue before so she figured it'd be the same... but it's not. she can't see herself doing that to him in semi-public, out of sheer worry and impulsivity. what they have is different; it was purely physical, nothing more.
but now this leaves her with only one conclusion. why she'd rather do it with wriothesley, and why she wouldn't hesitate to do it again in better, less harrowing circumstances. ]